God is Amazing!

I spent the entire weekend with 41 amazing people that are going to Thailand with me this summer. This mission trip is going to be absolutely amazing....all of these people are incredible!  I learned so much this weekend.  I learned about the Thai culture, a few words in Thai, what we will be doing over there, and mostly....I learned about our team.  It was so great to all finally be together and just start to really love each other in that amazing brothers and sisters in Christ kind of way.  I can't imagine any of these amazing people not being a part of this trip.  God has truly blessed me with this team, and I know that we are going to be able to do his works in mighty ways when we are in Thailand.  God is so good!

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The Little Things

Well, I feel as though I finally hit rock bottom in some of the places in my life, and now I am learning to believe and trust in God's faithfulness to get me out of this storm.  I have been learning alot in the last couple weeks about being in a storm and about God's faithfullness.  The cool thing is, is that even though I should be really upset/depressed/whatever, I am not.  I mean God is so amazing.  I mean he created everything we see, we touch, we smell, EVERYTHING. How AWESOME is that??  I guess I have just been learning to let him take care of all the mess going on in my life, and to concentrate on the little things in life that matter the most.  Sometimes its the little things that just make your day!  Well I will stop with all this rambling.  I hope you all have great days, survive these weeks before finals, and learn to look at the little things in life when the big things in life are crazy!

So I posted today....and then some crazy stuff happened. I used to have this awesome friendship that made me so happy, but lately I have been giving and giving and giving and getting nothing in return and today that nothing became this person being mean to me on purpose.  It hurt so bad and I just like went up in flames....I mean I got so mad, I yelled at them, I cried, I even hit them....I mean this is not the normal me.  And now, I just feel kinda blah inside.  It was something that was needed, I mean i know that I have to stand up for myself, but I just hate having to yell and get mad to make the point.  Anyways...I have decided to distance myself from them...I am not going to call them, facebook them, message them....nothing, unless they want to make things right first.  I have just become weak and tired and I can't hold all the weight anymore...and at the same time it kills me inside.  This is probably going to be one of the hardest things for me to ever do...and I hate it....but I just can't keep this going anymore if it is only hurting me.  Well I guess I will stop this rambling....but if ya wouldn't mind....keep me and this person in your prayers....we both really need it right now.